Friends

An amazing person has come into my life recently and I am so thankful, I had to put something on my blog about it. I know I don't post very often, but like to make sure I Post important things. This friend I have actually known since High school. We played ball together, actually coached HS JV Softball together, and then really haven't had any contact with each other until last spring. We have talked a few times but until this last March we didn't have much to do with each other. We recently reconnected and have talked everyday or been together everyday or both since the middle of March. I am so excited to spend time with her, she is amazing, and lots of fun. I don't know how to describe our relationship other than it has been just absolutely amazing in such a short time. She has all the qualities that I have always wanted to find in a friend, we have tons in common and everyday we find more and more in common. I am looking forward to our time together and have just felt happier the past month than I have in the past year. I am grateful for her and her willingness to put herself out there for me so I could get to know her!

Ok guys, seriously I am not dead!

Just have been really busy! Here is a pic of our latest jeep trip, we had tons of fun, and I really will try to do a post every now and again! I have been working outside in my yard or on the motorcycles, I hardly ever sit down these days! Loving this new found freedom of not working!

Life Change

So this week I have found myself unexpectedly unemployed and now have tons of time to do all the things that I love to do. Blogging is one of them. Even though this came as a surprise, we have decided that we are going to do everything possible to make it happen so that I can stay home. I have big plans! Housework, yardwork, all the little projects that I haven't had time to do. I have only been home for two days and have enjoyed every minute of it. I rode my motorcycle today, it was 50 degrees out there, and I couldn't stand not getting on my bike!
Of course, I still have two other "jobs" to keep me busy. The ambulance, and also my drug testing company. So I am hoping that I will be able to keep busy there and be able to keep some bills paid, but I am happy that I have those options.
My family is happy so what started as something that was just shocking and horrible, is turning out to be a great thing. I am planning on blogging more!

Happy New Year!

So we are up at my husbands brothers house, ringing in the new year, and the party is starting wind down, so while I have a few moments before I crash, I thought I would get a post out real quick. Things are going well in life right now, my job is going very good, my attitude is a lot better these days, i think it is because I am actually feeling really good. It is a good feeling to be able to say that the only pills I take every morning are vitamins and not anti depressants or narcotics or anything else. My relationship with my parents is going rather well, and I am getting along with my brothers well also. Like I said, I think a lot of it is my attitude and just the way I react to other people. I am not as moody as I used to be, my moods have evened out, and I find that I am not irritated as easily as I used to be. What a huge difference that makes! Oftne I find myself lacking in the blog arena, I think I should be funnier or cleverer :) But then I finally realized that I am just me and sometimes I am funny and sometimes I am not. I tend to take life a little too serious, I have a hard time just relaxing and being silly, so most of my posts are rather serious but I guess that is just the way I am. Occasionally I will let loose and have some fun, and most of the time it is when I am with a really good friend, or with my brothers.
I am thankful for all the people in my life who love and care about me, and I hope that this year I can show them how much they all mean to me.
I continue to run on the ambulance, and work full time and am working furiously and feverishly to raise my three great kids, and try to be a friend and wife to my wonderful husband who loves me but just doesn't know how to tell me. We are working on that too! :) I seriously can't complain about life at this point. Sure the economy stinks and we are feeling it in our personal finances, but I keep looking at the fact that we both have great jobs and we are just doing the very best we can and so far it is working.
I wish I could eloquently express how I am feeling, but I am not good with words like that. So I will say this-- Life now compared to a year ago is totally amazing and I am happy with the changes that I was able to make in my own life, with my depression and anxiety, and other areas that I still continue to work on. I have new friends, better relationships with old friends, and overal am pretty happy with the way things are. I think there is still room for much improvement, but I think that is always the case. We were put on this earth to learn, to be tested, to love, to hurt, to laugh, to cry, to fail, to succeed, and on and on. This year I have experienced a little bit of everything and I am happy to say that I have learned a ton, and hope to continue to do a little improving each day. I am grateful for my Heavenly Father for being patient with me, and loving me and for sending blessings my way when I needed them and for allowing me to serve others and facilitate some of the blessings that others needed.
I will stop rambling, but I hope that all my friends and family know how much I love each of them and how they have impacted my life even if I don't tell them. Happy New Year. May we all have the blessings we need and continue to do our very best everyday.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas everyone! I have not had time to keep up on my blog, but I hope to be able to soon. Just wanted to wish all my bloggy friends a Merry Christmas, I am hoping that I will have some time to check up on everyone's blogs while I am home this weekend. Love you all!

Help!!

I have been asked to speak to a combined young men/young women group this coming Sunday. They want me to speak on Good Works and my service on the ambulance and how it can bring a person closer to Christ. Ok, I am seriously drawing a blank on how to present this and not feel like I am standing up there bragging about something that I love to do. I have no idea how to tie it in the way they want me to. I have taught tons of lessons to youth and RS, but I have never been a "special speaker". This is actually freaking me out a little, not because I have to speak, but because I have no idea what to do. I am asking, begging, pleading my blog friends to brainstorm and help me out with this idea so that I can present it in a way that these youth will be excited about giving service when I am done. Another thing is, I don't think it is appropriate to stand up there on Sunday and tell ambulance stories. None of them are pretty. None of them feel like service at the time. Anyway, any ideas? Anyone? Anyone? Bueller? Come on people! Times a wastin!

I'm a slacker

I know... I know... I am a slacker. I haven't posted FOREVER! My life is so busy, it's just crazy. Thanksgiving was awesome, it was the first one in my 15 years that I stayed home with my family and just cooked. It was so great, I surprised even myself. I had a friend of mine here with her kids and we just cooked up a storm. We had a lot of fun. We went and visited my parents... I know... shocker, but my grandma was there so we made an appearance for about an hour and half. My mom sure is trying hard to make ammends. I am being nice, but definitely not going out of my way to spend a lot of time there, not because I am trying to be a jerk, I just seriously do not have time. I have been trying to tell my mom this literally for six years, because she would complain almost everyday that I would never stop and see her, and I would try to help her understand what my days are like but she would still be offended. Then my dad got all over it and told me, "What kind of a daughter are you, that you can't stop and see your mom?" (Whole other story)

I have been trying to tell them both that times have changed for me, I have three kids that are all getting older, they are not babies anymore, they all three have different agendas, schedules, etc. I have three jobs, and my husband is on the truck most of the week, so whatever I do during the week, I usually do it on my own. Life is hard, fast, busy, and it sucks sometimes and so I really don't feel bad about not spending any time there. The point to this little rant? Since our falling out after the divorce and remarriage, I don't have to give them excuses, I just stay away and they seem to try to understand. I know they think I am doing it on purpose, and I am seriously not, but I am liking the fact that they are leaving me alone to live my life and raise my kids. Sometimes I HATE living in the same town as both sides of the family, and other times I am really glad that I do.

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You Are a Marilyn!

You are a Marilyn -- "I am affectionate and skeptical."

Marilyns are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

• * Be direct and clear


• * Listen to me carefully


• * Don't judge me for my anxiety


• * Work things through with me


• * Reassure me that everything is OK between us


• * Laugh and make jokes with me


• * Gently push me toward new experiences


• * Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Marilyn

• * being committed and faithful to family and friends


• * being responsible and hardworking


• * being compassionate toward others


• * having intellect and wit


• * being a nonconformist


• * confronting danger bravely


• * being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Marilyn

• * the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind


• * procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself


• * fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of


• * exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger


• * wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right


• * being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Marilyns as Children Often

• * are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn


• * are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger


• * form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent


• * look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel


• * are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Marilyns as Parents

• * are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty


• * are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence


• * worry more than most that their children will get hurt


• * sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

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